Mentally or physically

I sit on a bench

there's bunch of people here

but only me who all alone

like always

they insanely laughing

out of no reasons,pathetic

wouldn't they know it just temporary

bitter?could be

But maybe it just me who already giving up

since entire world seems to be against me

it wont happen

negativity swallow me slowly

or maybe i finally know my place in this world

it hurt s , its hard

but sooner or later

i'll accept it with my open arm

that

happiness never truly belong to me

The last petal finally fall crashing with the ground

Weak , no voice could be heard

The times is running towards the end

Few minutes , no... only few ticking from clock left for me

I decided to only steal a glance

Rather than saying a words

The words that i thought i could easily say since day one

you might not knowing how i feel

you'll never know

our last meet

the memory still there in my mind

i could see the boundaries that u  already made

sigh

even the smile that u gave seems so odd

Maybe because its a goodbye smile

You look just so fine

After the day i left you

maybe it just me that still torn apart

your bitter smile

your fragrance

maybe its me who still trap under that magic spell

Sorrow , tomorrow or never

I still hoping  .

When will all this would end

It might take forever

and forever is infinity

Living is like a hell

You forget how the heaven looks like

maybe theres never be tomorrow

Because  its just me who stuck in 1st page