Hi 

Lol I'm writing this in working hours . The idea just pop out . So here I am ! August kinda miserable for me . September where I try and keep trying to be okay . I think I slowly embrace things . Neither good nor bad . If I wanna cry I just cry . I used to think crying like a baby is just for a weak . But nah, it's how you express yourself . Nothing bad about it . 

I kinda sad , I have few hobbies I cannot do like before . I don't play game anymore , not do art , not reading , no more watching criminal documentaries . It just because I can't focus anymore . I just doom scrolling through TikTok and cry . I feel bad about myself lol . 

Why i crying ? I just..feel not being appreciated lol . Nvm we talk about it later . But as I said September better than august . I go hiking , meet my old school mate and have fun in art gallery which is my fav things to do . So yeah I lose and gain something on September . 

Few days left , hope you guys doing well too .I will just doing mural on my bedroom's door for this weekend hehe . I think I should start to get some ideas how to decorate it . If I have a time I will just share the final product here lol . Till then tc . 

 Hi , 

I feel so down lately . 

I got family issues , stress from work place and my relationship ain't working well . Yet my friends are far from me . What a good combination , ain't it ? 

Sometimes I feel like I have no one . No one really cares if I'm here or not . Welp , what a negative statement here . Sorry for that . 

I'm a human being . I cannot pretend like I'm good and nothing affected me . It's kinda sad my relationship starting to lose spark . It's kinda tiring to fix it by myself . I bet I just need to let it go . But starting all over again at this age is so tiring . 

I hope sooner or later i'll meet someone who love me more , who accept me who am I without comparing  :) . 

 Hi I just want to let it be here 

Expressing how I feel lately 

I have no one to talk to . 

No one really listen. I blame no one . 

Everyone have their own life , things they fight for too . 

I have been trying so hard

I even pretending to be someone else 

Just to be close to you 

Yet it's not enough 

I feel violated 

What I have done .. 

This is so shameful enough , I feel like begging people to stay 

When all they wanted to leave since first day 

What a life I'm living . 

Am I not worth it to fight for ? 

I keep being left behind when it comes to being chosen. 

I'm no one's fav . People who I thought will stay already have someone else . 

It's always another girl and not me . 

I bet my life sucks . No one really appreciated me . Since I keep giving all even I got nothing in return . 

Maybe my avoidant soul deserve all this karma . 

Maybe I deserve to be alone for the rest of my life . 

Hi guys , saja nak share salah satu puisi yang saya buat dekat sini . I usually memang akan crete a poem for someone yang i feel special . Yet they never or wont ever know about this pun . I keep it secret with me . Macam sedih ja bunyi kan . 

So this puisi is about him . Yang saya kenal sejak April tahun lepas . Meski pun sudah tidak seakrab dulu , namun saya masih bersyukur pernah kenal dia . 

Ini untuk anda :) 

Puisi : Kamu 

Halo buat kamu yang berada di kejauhan

Namun sentiasa aku rasa dekat 

Maaf jika aku pernah menyakiti

Tahulah kamu bahwa itu bukan maksudku juga

Kehadiran kamu 

Sering kali membawa kehangatan

Aku yang dulu terbiasa sendiri 

Malah kini menjadi leka dengan kehadiran mu

Keserdahanaan kamu menyedarkan aku

Bahawa manusia seperti kamu masih wujud 

Manusia yang ku harap bakal menjadi sebahagian diri ku . 

Sering kali aku terleka 

Mengimpikan bahawa kita bisa bersama

Namun aku sedar

Kamu harus aku lepaskan untuk tetap bertumbuh 

Siapa aku untuk kamu hentikan langkah 

Wajar saja kita hanya persinggahan

Yang tuhan temukan seketika 

Untuk berkongsi rasa namun bukan untuk dijadikan tujuan . 

 Hello , assalamualaikum. 

Dah lama tak update dekat sini . Its not because busy tapi i just dont know nak update apa mcm tu . Sounds sgt demotivated kan? Haha.  Trust me i rindu blogging for real.  I just hate the idea my pc rosak.  

Rindu . 

Last weekend kan  i went to G2G Farm Animal . If you asked me , Worth it lah for me . Pergi with my friends and Ayish , best cuma balik memang semua bau kambing lah . Funny . 

Guess what ? They really lepas kan kambing, ostrich and ada iguana yang tengah jalan kat tepi je . No worries mereka semua jinak . Ouh , also ada Capybara yang jalan sorang sorang camtu.Cute isnt it ? I suka concept dorang . Tapi if you guys jenis takut takut better jangan kot . 

Here i tunjuk few gambar . I suka zoo tau . I kalau boleh nak pergi semua zoo kat malaysia ni lol . Boleh ke suggestkan any zoo yang best yet affordable mcm tu . 

For me if pergi sini dengan anak kecil pun okay . Sebab harga kids lain tau dengan harga adult cmtu . Masa balik we singgah tu nearest kedai makan ni . Sampai sekarang i teringat rasa kuey teow goreng dia sedap weyh tak tipu . Banyak betul portion macam untuk dua orang . Dengan tempat cantik . Dia memang tepi jalan je tau .

Cantik right ? View dia pun tepi tasik je . Best untuk tempat lepak mcm tu . My friend cakap air nenas dia pun enak . Idk la sebab i tak minum air buah . Tapi like i said kuey teow dia serious sedap . Kalau lah i datang lagi confirm repeat . Ha camtu perasaan dia.  

Alhamdullilah, Allah for still letting me spend time with people around me :) . I feel blessed . 

Alright, till then . See ya when i see ya :)