Assalamualaikum , hello guys . Have a freaking cold weather ever and yeah it still raining heavily out there . I love raining because its seems to suit me well emotionally...Dont forget your umbrella or at least sweather . 

Have you guys ever feel or felt that your surrounding too negative that makes you feel suffocated ? Or it just you not fit in there ? 

For me , thats what i feel exactly now . I feel like i need to get out but theres no way out . I have numerous of nightmare for each night . I woke up with accelerate heart beat . I do recite dua before fall asleep but still its happen :( . Theres a time when im scared to go to sleep because im afraid that nightmares will chasing me again . 

That nightmare full with horror , sometimes it shifts to crazy people chasing me out of no where try to kill me, and its not happen only once but more than twice . 

At end of the dream , i yell to myself to wake up because i knew i can ever see my own dead body even in a dream . 

Have you guys ever experienced things like this ? 

I also have experienced crying while sleeping . Just because i had a dream that people i love the most died . At that moments it hits me a lot , i was like . What if its become real ? Even in a dream its already messed me up . I guess thats how shaytaan works . 

Due to curiosity i google and find similarity of my dream ; its come out stated that i feel like being a trap and not in a good state of life . 

Well i dont want to truly believe on this it just i guess everyone have their own broken pieces of puzzle . 

I just hope and pray my life getting better sooner or at least in a piece jebalyo . 

No more nightmare please . 

Okay thats all from this entry and thank you for reading !! :) stay safe everyone .