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Assalamualaikum and  hello guys . Our life full with greet , meet and goodbye . They said first impression would stay forever . Agree with that such statement ? I'm not fully agree with that because i never ever  leaving such a great impact in any first meet . I'm such malu-malu kucing punya olang hehe.Dah berminggu baru nak tunjuk belang the real me . Itu pun when i was around my close friend lah .

What would be you guys punya first impression ? Mine for sure = sombong , takut orang nak dekat . Apa yang boleh dilihat , my bestfriends yang stay sekarang mostly ialah orang yang first tegur dulu when we were in our first met . Wow , i just realized that ! Maybe i'm such a shy person (konon) when i meet a new friend but when i comfortable with anyone i'll becoming open .  Betul lah , takkan after a year kenal still nak gelak cover kot tutup mulut . Lol rasa macam hyde and jekyll pula ada 2 dominant character . Eh tak boleh , hyde and jekyll hyunbin handsome !

For me as long as our first impression tu tak jadi negatif sangat then its okaylah . Impression tu kira macam judgemental lah kan ? Aip , baru first time jumpa dah nak judging , no no no . Lets become such warm and open person . Tak payah nak judge orang sangat lah , kita pun bukan semua orang suka pun . Jadi jangan nak cari musuh pula . (tengah nasihat diri sendiri)

Penting ke first impression ? for me nope secara tak formal but in formal way sememangnya penting . Formal dan tak formal . Formal such as during interview , interviewer confirm tengok appearance candidate dulu baru dia decide nak kasi jawatan or tidak . While tak formal macam in friendship atau aktiviti seharian.

Okay actually kan ,during minggu orentasi when i was a student i always jadi lone ranger because idk how to become sweet talker puji  others , chat about fancy things . I saw some did this and its  work . Well it won't be permanent (friendship seems u kinda fake here) but its  a good try , at least that person do something and not like me . I just sit there and observe other , ouh dont forget that i pray so hard that orentasi session to end fast ! I'm not introvert , but i know first meet people akan judge you kaw-kaw in their brain but cover dengan senyuman ( look what happen when i start  overthinking)

It took me 2 weeks to warm up ~ Actually even until end of semester i still known as lone ranger , but its kinda worth it . Since i can make a lot of friends and not only stick dengan satu geng je . Well , thats what i thought . First impression or last impression , i hope we gonna leave a good memories to others . Even , we as human tak lari dari buat silap , tapi why not we try untuk bagi a good impression kepada orang lain . Don't forget to always be nice and gentle .

This week we flooded with heavy raining season, neither morning nor night . I told u it's really cold till my bone can feel it  .

 Hey guys Assalamualaikum and very good morning . Hey its Saturday aight? You know why i'm asking ? Sebab yesterday i messaged my friend , asked about her brother's wedding , i thought its today but its actually tomorrow . Wont it would be hilarious funny if i come to her home dengan berbaju kurung lengkap pakej gadis melayu terakhir but the ceremony is tomorrow?

 While i'm writing this i keep thinking that : 

• I just thinking too much ( over reacted )
• i might be wrong
  

Friend for benefit either directly or indirectly . Once we grow older we'll unfortunately losing them one by one . Due to commitments and other issues. This is what everyone experience when we're in early 20's i guesss .Actually , i could stated that i'm in the lowest point of my life right now and i lost a lot of my friends ( which makes me realize about one thing : the real one would stay no matter what ) . However , i couldnt blame them totally because i have cut contacts with them and have been depressed for almost years . 

But i do really thankful for few friends that still find a way to reach me , even they're so busy with their own life  . They don't value me based on what i have , they accept me the way i am .  I am so sad that i can't balas their kebaikan sekarang . But surely inshaa Allah one day . 

To friend that already go to different path , it just we aren't in the same line of life anymore . I would cherish each of our memories . Good luck and be happy .

How people be friend with you for benefit ? 

1) Money 

This is the most of reasons why they being clowning and willing to be like a leech . You provide them money ,  and they'll follow you wherever you go . I believe money has a strong impact " you can be happy without money " that's all lying . You still need money , even to go to the public restroom.Well , i never experience this since i'm penniless ,  only can buy my own food lol .

2) Fame 

By watching tons of college english movie ,teenage lifestyle that always end with the heroin chosen to become a prom queen .Typical movie , whereas in real life i become AJK in dinner time and has no time for a picture sobs sobs thats real .

3) Position 

I guess this is really transparent when you start working . Subordinates who spills sweet words infront the boss even they just being faking. Is it really worth it ? I always told myself to be real with myself , if you don't like the way people treat you ,, then confront with them . Things like that .

Idk if there's anything left ? I'm short of ideas hehe . Have u guys experience things like this ? It sucks and yeah it hurts a lot when you realize they just using u for benefit . They throw you away when you aren't giving them benefit anymore. Never mind , lets move on and live happily with our own life . 

Remember this : We  also can be toxic in someone else life

 

 Assalamualaikum , how are u doing guys ? As if u read the tittle , u dont need to read twice because its real !My mom addicted with internet .Addicted ?Sure ? Yes ! This what dictionary on website told me : 'enthusiastically devoted to a particular thing or activity.' haha, my mom not a conventional person , she blends well with trend . Sometimes , she even expert with it especially in fashion (uwu). She still pulls her legging at her 50s wowzerz . Still working and have lovely friends around her .I love the way mom still enjoying her life by doing what she love since she tend to easily stress . Oukay , thats my problem neither . 

Hey okay pasal internet tu , my mom belajar how to use internet dah macam 3 years like that . My elder sister who told my mom how to use it when i was not around . Okay lah belajar benda baru kan , i also proud with my mom about that ! *hugs * But the real problem is whenever she play the youtube all day long after work and her internet cepat habislah kan ? Sometimes her phone hang sebab save  lot videos on youtube.Then she asked for my hotspot , since my hotspot once accidentally connected with her phone . Whenever i use her phone i'll use my internet .

My mom one of peminat tegar 7 Hari Mencintaiku  , so after watching on tv she'll again watching on the youtube . So after the drama end , i no need to listen to the ost repeatedly hahaha .She also one of the Bollywood movie lover , but now mom into old malay movie zaman Mat Sentul , P.Ramlee .  ( i'm fan too with Bollywood and Malay classic ) . I bet most Malaysian know how to dance like a pro Bollywood dancer .

My hotspot just freaking slow , so i said 'no' to my mom because i'm poor i use prepaid not postpaid  . No kidding , i really thankful with free internet given by goverment in this COVID season . The funny part , my mom keep push me to give my hotspot to her  . My mom never say 'No ' even i don't want to do so (sad me ) . plsIts not i'm kedekut tapi my internet not that laju :( . 

The reason why my mom want it , like i said my mum love to use youtube -,- " maybe a bit of facebooking . She seems like cant afford to not have the internet even for awhile . I kinda scared with will giving bad impact .Well , i'm going to read more about internet addiction for my own good too .

Yeah maybe i pun sometimes macam tu i guess , rasa not easy even only a day w/o internet . Its kinda scary right ? We can feel so empty w/o internet . We interact less with living things around us. Internet slowly becomes invisible pills that we take daily to make sure we are okay. So thats why sometimes i'm off from social media . How i'm alive? What did i do ? I play with my cats , drawing , write some poems ,  in short words i do my hobby. If you compare the day with or w/o internet , the quality would be totally different . I take a rest on most of my social media , i guess its a good choice.

Someone pls send me a help to explain to my mom hhahaha .

So kalau korang boleh korang rate tahap kebergantungan anda dengan internet , it would be berapa percent ? Curious juga ni . Lagi satu , have you try a day without internet ? Okay tu je nak share harini . Thank you for spend time reading my entry and ...sorry for my bahasa rojak buah :')