Good bye October and Hello November ( why October so fast lol ) 

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Now Playing : IKON - FLOWER 

'Following the path of clouds
On the other side
Will our old selves still be there?
And I know that I can’t turn back time
Or hold onto you and bring you back'

Here i am wiriting this at 1.30 am -,-

Hi guys .How are you doing ? 

I have random question . 

Have you ever let anyone mistreated you ? 

Just because you appreciate them , afraid of the idea of losing them 

or is it because of love? Really love ? 

Actually, I do feel extremely exhausted when I keep just giving without getting any 

I shouldn't put myself that lower right ? ( i do sabotage myself again *sigh*)

sometimes I feel like I should end this toxic cycle . 

But why , i couldn't ? ( i just afraid the idea of leaving him)

That person can peacefully living their life without you 

But you just there waiting for their response 

Pathetic right ?

lol

Maybe I'm not mean to be treated like human being 

Love is just not for me right ?

Even people around me already prove it , 

I surrounded with people that struggle with their relationship or even already end it tragically 

Is it a sign that i trying to ignore ? 

Maybe i just need to accept that sincerely 

without forcing things when the whole world seems to against it 

(they said your instinct never lies )

we trying to fit on society that not even ours