Hello , assalamualaikum. 

Dah lama tak update dekat sini . Its not because busy tapi i just dont know nak update apa mcm tu . Sounds sgt demotivated kan? Haha.  Trust me i rindu blogging for real.  I just hate the idea my pc rosak.  

Rindu . 

Last weekend kan  i went to G2G Farm Animal . If you asked me , Worth it lah for me . Pergi with my friends and Ayish , best cuma balik memang semua bau kambing lah . Funny . 

Guess what ? They really lepas kan kambing, ostrich and ada iguana yang tengah jalan kat tepi je . No worries mereka semua jinak . Ouh , also ada Capybara yang jalan sorang sorang camtu.Cute isnt it ? I suka concept dorang . Tapi if you guys jenis takut takut better jangan kot . 

Here i tunjuk few gambar . I suka zoo tau . I kalau boleh nak pergi semua zoo kat malaysia ni lol . Boleh ke suggestkan any zoo yang best yet affordable mcm tu . 

For me if pergi sini dengan anak kecil pun okay . Sebab harga kids lain tau dengan harga adult cmtu . Masa balik we singgah tu nearest kedai makan ni . Sampai sekarang i teringat rasa kuey teow goreng dia sedap weyh tak tipu . Banyak betul portion macam untuk dua orang . Dengan tempat cantik . Dia memang tepi jalan je tau .

Cantik right ? View dia pun tepi tasik je . Best untuk tempat lepak mcm tu . My friend cakap air nenas dia pun enak . Idk la sebab i tak minum air buah . Tapi like i said kuey teow dia serious sedap . Kalau lah i datang lagi confirm repeat . Ha camtu perasaan dia.  

Alhamdullilah, Allah for still letting me spend time with people around me :) . I feel blessed . 

Alright, till then . See ya when i see ya :) 

 Dia lagi apa ya sekarang ? 

Setidak pantas itu kah aku di mata dia ?

Ternyata itu ya orang yang aku kalah saing

Aku ditinggal lagi untuk orang lain ya?

Posisi aku terisi oleh orang baru lagi 

Padahal aku masih belum pamit loh 

Mati matian aku melawan logika aku 

Bahwa kita itu tidak pernah serasi 

Setega itu kamu ke aku 

Kamu ganti aku saat aku masih perlu kamu

Tuhan

kenapa aku masih lihat sisi baiknya

Padahal dia sudah jahat ke aku 

Kenapa aku masih senang kalau dia masih ada

Padahal kan harusnya aku marah 

He even cheated 

Why do i still still want to be his friend ? 

Tuhan , semoga aku ikhlaskan semua ini . 

Semoga rasa sakit ini di kasi hadiah yang lumayan ya . 

Kerna sakit kali ini bukan main main juga

Kesal 

Tapi tolong jaga dia 

Kerna dia juga pernah baik ke aku :) 

 Hello guys lol i dont know why i  always leaving this blog for a month and only comeback when its a new month . Sorry yea , i just don't have much to tell . I just living my introvert life peacefully .

Lately i have been kinda stress with work place. Actually i the one of people who rarely talk about work after work hour . Welp , that's nothing wrong with that right ? 

However lately so many people who wanna to resign including share holder so i think its a big thing . I really want to resign but i dont have a back up plan . Even if i do , i will just resign without a new job . Means that i need to wait for awhile while getting a new job . Probably months since its a small town . But i don't want to stay in a toxic environment and work under a poor management anymore .

 I kinda stuck and don't know . I wish i get a new job soon since i apply for some . Please pray for me guys . I hope i start next year with physical , mental and financial stable :) . 

 Good bye October and Hello November ( why October so fast lol ) 

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Now Playing : IKON - FLOWER 

'Following the path of clouds
On the other side
Will our old selves still be there?
And I know that I can’t turn back time
Or hold onto you and bring you back'

Here i am wiriting this at 1.30 am -,-

Hi guys .How are you doing ? 

I have random question . 

Have you ever let anyone mistreated you ? 

Just because you appreciate them , afraid of the idea of losing them 

or is it because of love? Really love ? 

Actually, I do feel extremely exhausted when I keep just giving without getting any 

I shouldn't put myself that lower right ? ( i do sabotage myself again *sigh*)

sometimes I feel like I should end this toxic cycle . 

But why , i couldn't ? ( i just afraid the idea of leaving him)

That person can peacefully living their life without you 

But you just there waiting for their response 

Pathetic right ?

lol

Maybe I'm not mean to be treated like human being 

Love is just not for me right ?

Even people around me already prove it , 

I surrounded with people that struggle with their relationship or even already end it tragically 

Is it a sign that i trying to ignore ? 

Maybe i just need to accept that sincerely 

without forcing things when the whole world seems to against it 

(they said your instinct never lies )

we trying to fit on society that not even ours

Hey guys happy weekend ! 

I think i able to balance between being productive and recharging my energy for this weekend . I start a day by 30 mins brisk walk , which im proud i did it :) . I have plan about it since yesterday . I hope i can do it again for tomorrow la .

Actually kan , i thought i will overslept since i sleep at 3 am yesterday after playing games . Thank to my twin for wake me up . Its kinda late because when we went to the park the sun its already above our head even its only 8.40 am . 

After that we go for our brunch at the nearest tesco . I choose bbq nasi ayam since its my fav . The cheapest and yummy ofc . 

Have you guys ever concern about your weight ?Like mine its keep adding numbers lol . No matter how i change my diet or portion of food . Maybe because i always sleep late ? 

So right now instead of focus on diet only . I try to add some routine of exercise , drink more water and puasa sunat on monday and thursday . Semoga istiqamah . 

Any idea of losing weight? Mind sharing ? Who knows its work kan ? 

I think i will stop writing here . Thank you for reading my bored entry . Stay alive and be thankful for everything :) Seeya .