Balik je kerja rasa exhausted sangat . Then tertidur . Best kan , tertidur waktu hujan . Bangun je its already 1 am . Tengok semua dah tidur , sepi je rumah . 

Then i found out ouh lupa makan tteokbokki rose dari cu mart . Enak juga rasanya even i nak spicy at first cuma dah habiskan . 

Back to the topic ,its about how i feel lately.  I rasa its my fault . To have higher expectation to someone . Sampaikan i think even dia red flag pun i still try to okay with that . Why i said its red flag even he is a nice person ? 

You know when someone is doing white lies? Just to comfort you . It hurts me a lot when i notice that . But i decide to let it go and not discussing about it . Then going MIA without a reason for days . Maybe i too clingy ?

Dry text is the part that make me realize . Its always me who initiate giving topic . Sigh . 

You know what , I always think , i shouldnt always be presence . Thats why he think i'm an option because i always there . Or in the other word , singkat kata it aint me who he wants . 

He never serious since day one . It just me who already being trap into his game . I hope , i'll get out into these mess . Sadly this thing happen to me right after i decide to at least try to find a soulmate . I was like " maybe i dont mean to be loved ?" . Sad lol . Maybe i should put myself to top priorities again till i meet the right person . 

Well life lesson right . Hopefully , i wont make a same mistake again . 

Thank you for reading to my fikiran celaru lol.